Honor Where You Are Today
Today was a difficult day.
Today I find myself feeling overwhelmed, exhausted, emotional, and frustrated. I used to be so good at handling a busy life. I could multitask with the best of them. Now, I'm putting coffee creamer in my cereal, missing my turns while driving (sometimes resulting in multiple circles back) and feeling pulled in several directions.
I know many would say...that's just life, honey. I know; I hear you!
Here's my challenge.
My reaction to my "mistakes" has become a frustration with myself. I beat myself up and become frustrated with myself because I can't handle this life like I used to be able to.
I’m looking at my situation with a lens of lack rather than grace.
Why can't I handle it all?
Why can't I focus?
Why can't I function like I did before?
Why does it have to be so hard?
Why?
We take a hit when we experience difficult times (trauma, loss, financial insecurity, etc.). I'm realizing it's a hit that might stay with me for the rest of my life, which means my life has to adjust to this new reality.
Sure...the weeks, and months after the challenging times, you're off your game. That's to be expected.
What happens when it's a year or years later, and you still feel off your game? There seems to be an expectation that we will return to functioning as we did, and we push ourselves to live up to those expectations.
What happens if I never get my old game back?
Maybe I have to find a new game.
Maybe it's time to realize I'm different than I was below. I am human, and my experiences have changed me. I evolve.
I am learning to accept that my life must be slower than it used to be, as much as that pains me to admit. I have to go slower than what I'm used to.
What experiences have impacted you lately?
What does your body, mind, and spirit need right now?
Recognize what it needs may be very different than what you’ve needed in the past.
Honor where you are today.
You may be here for a moment, a year, several years, or the rest of your life, and that's ok.
